used to fly, now i float

i'm heidi. i write, consume and play cello.

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Permanent Wave’s 2nd SOUND WAVE: Benefit for Center for Reproductive Rights

Thursday, April 28 · 8:30pm

Shea Stadium
20 Meadow St.
Brooklyn, NY

:::::PS XO –

L train to Grand St.
between Waterbury and Bogart

dance your ass off, take part in community art, chow down on baked & savory goodies, and STAND UP FOR OUR RIGHTS

all proceeds benefit the center for reproductive rights –
“For more than 15 years, the Center for Reproductive Rights has used the law to advance reproductive freedom as a fundamental human right that all governments are legally obligated to protect, respect, and fulfill.”


first thing i did after returning to my own room for the first time in a week was lay down and listen to this entire soundtrack.

you’re growing up. and rain sort of remains on the branches of a tree that will someday rule the earth. and it’s good that there is rain. it clears the month of your sorry rainbow expressions, and it clears the streets of the silent armies… so we can dance.

-jim carroll

free energy plays “hope child” for it gets better / the new gay in DC!

so awesome. also peep the titus andronicus shirt on the drummer!


Revolution Lady-Style NOW! Permanent Wave’s Live Performance Series


Permanent Wave’s Feminist Performance Series, Sound Wave, kicks off Sunday, February 6th, 2011

Death By Audio
49 S. 2nd St. between Kent and Wythe
L train to Bedford Ave.
JMZ trains to Marcy Ave.
G train to Broadway

noon: 30 –
Emilyn Brodsky –
P.S. XO –
Plastiq Passion –

Kelly Zen-Yie Tsai –
Hanalei Ramos –
Kay Barrett –

Marissa Paternoster (Screaming Females) –
..and more to come!

Baked goods!
(vegan and non-vegan)

$7 at the door

This is a benefit for the Center Against Domestic Violence in Brooklyn, and the theme of the event is Relationship Violence.  Both showgoers and performers will have a chance to engage in activities relating to awareness and activism!

Permanent Wave is a feminist group that knows women are more than groupies and merch girls. We value art from female, trans, and LGBTQ people that challenges the norm. We believe that women should see other women as collaborators and inspirations, not rivals. We want to rip the band-aid off the halted conversations and change the way women are treated.

SOUND WAVE: Feminist music, art, and performance — to be played at maximum volume.

like the parquet floor of my bedroom

the first song on the new wire album makes me feel like i’m listening to taped hole songs on my walkman on the school bus when i was 13. how does a band this old make me feel so young?

and they box up the glasses

last night, the drive-by truckers played this song and it was pretty appropriate. not exactly sad, but realistic.

then we witnessed a giant singalong to “rosalita” in the turkey’s nest.

today i will do some 2010 reflection and probably eat more cheese. then i will ring in the new year with my love.

so much has changed. i feel very young and very old at the same time.