o christmas tree

last night i thought about how my parents won’t be home for christmas for the first time in my life, and realized i am more upset about that and the lack of a tree at their house (usually it tops 8 feet or more) and just cried for a little while. i guess at 25 i feel i shouldn’t be as affected by christmas as i am, and i am beyond grateful to have my love with me this year, but, well… i am. just like i really, really wish i still had the christmas mixtape my dad made for us as kids. i’ve tried to recreate it, but it’s hard, because all of the songs came from random LPs and even my dad doesn’t remember which ones he used. so, i’ve spent a lot of time combing youtube for songs that sound familiar. this one does.